Dear family and friends,
It has been a complete blessing to have you all in my life. Knowing you are thinking of my family and I during this time has been a comfort to me. All the letters, notes, and phone calls have kept me going. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Today was another hard day. I barely slept last night tossing and turning. I woke up at exactly 4:00 am this morning. It was so weird. I instantly thought of you. I will be sending the girls back to school Thursday and Friday. Eddie and I (Doug too) went to the Cemetery to pick out your final resting place. I think you will love it. It's in the garden called the Good Shephard. It has a statue of Jesus with his shephards hook and his flock surrounding him. Your marker is tasteful, it was tough deciding on one, but Eddie and I finally agreed on it. I heard from the minister today. We couldn't find the one that Eddie wanted, which is unfortunate, but I'm really happy with the Minister we talked to. I have just emailed him tonight telling him stories from your childhood that I remember, things that you liked, that you did... as much as I could remember. I think the service will be touching. I pray it will be. I'm a bit mad right now. Jackie told Aunt Pat today that your death notice wasn't in Wednesday's paper. I bought a paper late this evening, and she was right.. your notice wasn't in there. I'm mad/scared/pissed thinking the Funeral home may not have emailed the Obituary out yet. I'm crossing everything I have, and praying hard that it prints in Thursdays paper. That it's accurate. I just want everything to be perfect as I can make it for you, for family. I don't want any hurt feelings. It's so hard trying to remember it all. Amy is having a speghetti dinner at her house Friday night. And Saturday after the funeral we will gather at Amy's house for a luncheon. It's a special gift she is giving me hosting these functions at her house. Thank you so much cuz! And many thanks to Aunt Pat for providing so much of the afternoons meal.
I think of you constantly. I feel like I was a bad daughter because I wasn't thinking of you more and appreciating you as often while you were here with me. I'm so glad I grew up enough, in time to appreciate you as much as I had while you were here. The kids and I picked out special items we will be placing with you on Saturday. Their so excited for you to see them. We'll be writing you letters tomorrow too. Oh, I talked to Carol, Jackie M, and Melanie yesterday. It was nice to hear from old friends. Your Pallbearers will be Katelyn, Doug, Edward, Brian, Brad, and Dale. I love you mom. I miss you more than I can convey in once sentence.