Thursday, February 4, 2010

In ♥ Loving ♥ Memory

Serina Weiner Crowe
October 25, 1998 ~ February 3, 2010

One of the hardest things I've had to do in my life is saying goodbye to that sweet face above. Weiner had a heart of gold... a sweet gentle nurturing nature... she loved us fiercely. I hope she knows I loved her just as much. She was the perfect fit for our family. This is so hard to write. Tears are streaming down my face and they won't stop... it's hard to catch a good deep breath.

It started Sunday evening where her back legs wouldn't support her weight, and by Monday morning, her front legs were the same way. We took her to the vet, had xrays, and saw some narrowing around the 5th and 6th vertebra in her spine... they sent us home with steroids hoping that any swelling/inflammation would go down, allowing her to walk again. She deteriorated quickly... she was not taking food or water tuesday midday, and the same way wednesday, and would barely lift her head up.

She always followed me from room to room. Even if it was to go to the bathroom for 1 minute, or to refill the children's drinks.. she was right there, laying down waiting on me. I have these really worn in trails around the fence in the backyard... there is no longer grass in that line around the fence, just dirt. She was always patrolling back there. I pray the grass never grows back in that line. I hope she taught Ooxie enough to keep it worn down. I held her gentle face as she was put to sleep yesterday. She kissed me the best she could, as she was dehydrated, weak, and could hardly hold her head up on her own anymore. She eventually fell into a deep sleep... she was snoring so loudly.. I just laid my head on her back and drunk it all in. It would be the last night I would hear that sound from her. The last time I could wrap my arms around her. The last time I could kiss the soft fur on face. I kept telling her I loved her, even though the vet told me she was sleeping. I kept petting her. I miss her so much... I pray she's now running, patrolling, and chasing the birds and cats with that deep bark of hers. 

If I'm not around for a bit, you'll know why. Grab your fuzzy family member and give them a great big squeeze and kiss... this was so unexpected, as Weiner had so many good years left in her.
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12 comments:

  1. I am so, so sorry for your loss!
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  2. Hugs, Leah. We went through similar with our Max a little over a year ago. We still miss him. Thinking of you.

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  3. I am so sorry Leah, my heart breaks for you, I know this must be devastating for you. :(

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  4. Oh Leah, words cannot express how much I feel for what your going through. I have been through this pain and nothing helps except thinking that she will always be with you in spirit, all those years were a blessing to you all but more importantly remember that you did the best you could to not cause her more suffering.

    I'm so sorry that you lost one of your best friends I will be praying for you and your family during this difficult time.

    (((HUGS)))

    -christine

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  5. I'm so sorry for your loss Leah. My thoughts and prayers are with you. May God bring you comfort.

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  6. OMG Leah, I am terribly sorry for your loss, I will be thinking of your family and praying for strength. I love you!!!!

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  7. I'm so sorry, Leah! I know exactly what you are going through and I know how hard it is. Thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  8. Leah I am so sorry. I can only imagine how hard this is. I am so glad you were able to share such wonderful memories with her.

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  9. Leah... just came across your blog. How've you been hun. I'm SO sorry for your loss. I totally understand. Our dog/family member... Kato.. the most beautiful gentle giant on the planet, was put down 2 years ago. He went quickly. I also held him while he was put down, and it destroyed our family. It was horrific. The pain does ease eventually... I promise. We did end up getting another dog... who doesn't replace our beloved Kato. But Beauregard... the Problematic Puggle of Perpetual Need... he's so very special in his own right. And he is also now part of our family. Kato is off running in pastures with my Mom, and enjoying himself. I KNOW it! Your beauty has now joined him. I think they are having a blast. We know they are in Heaven. We're told the lion will lay with the lamb... so animals are there. and our dogs have a special place (as do our cats). I'm sending you a big hug. I am sorry for your loss and your pain.

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  10. Im so sorry for your loss. I had a cat from the time I was four til I was 26 and it was the hardest thing when she die. Our parents treated her like a fourth child. Mom signed our christmas cards with her name at the bottom of the kids names. It is a hard loss Im sure.

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  11. that last comment was me...sorry i hit the anonymous button

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  12. Oh, honey, I'm so so sorry. This post made me cry! It's so sad that she had to go, but at least you were there to share her last moment with her. (((((hugs)))))

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Thank you for taking the time to leave me a comment, it warms my heart. I hope you have a blessed day. Crafty hugs, Leah

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