Sunday, June 8, 2008

Chest Pain is plain scary

Yesterday was scary. In fact, an eye opener to my health. I went to bed Friday night with this pain in my chest that went through to my back. I tried not to think about it as I drifted off to sleep. I woke up at 5am Saturday morning... still don't know why I awoke, but I couldn't go back to sleep. I decided to get out in the garden and weed... best time considering how hot it has been lately on the eastern seaboard. I cam back inside around 6, gave the kids sippies, and sat down... my chest started hurting again... so I looked up symptons of a heart attack. I had 3 of the warning signs. My jaw felt differently, pain in my chest, and in my back. Talk about terrified...

Doug came out around 7 and said, wth? What are you doing up today? (Saturdays are my day off... he is suppose to be up with the kids) So I told him how I felt going to bed and thie pain was still there on/off this morning. Anyways, after him trying to talk me into the doctor I convinced him to get started putting the trampoline together (we bought that friday afternoon... BEFORE we realized I had skipped paying a months car payment.. ugh.) before it gets too dang hot out. He took the kids out with him, and I stayed inside. I eventually went out to take some photos and ended up helping. I think the hardest part was getting the bouncy part centered and lined up evenly all the way around.. we eventually got it centered and all the springs hooked up. Then came the surrounding piece. We have 3/4 of the trampoline together.

We came in for a break from the heat and some lunch and started discussing Doug's first daughter, Amanda. Doug has never had contact with Amanda, and is now, after 15 years, considering bringing her into our home. This stresses me out to no end.. not just because she would be a new member of the family, but because she is currently in a treatment facility for hurting herself (cutting) hurting a student in another state (cutting with glass) and I'm scared for my family. Apparantly, she is a liar and manipulator (what teenager isn't, right?) but just all this bundled up into a teenager we don't know... scares me.

We have a happy home. A loving family. We respect one another, support one another, lift each other up... we are truly blessed.... I don't want one kid I've never met to come in and tear it all down.... so, this is just a sprinkling of what Doug and I have been talking about lately.. and evidently, something that causes me great stress.... which also causes MORE acid in your stomach.

back on topic....
Around noon I realized my chest was hurting regularly, and thought we should go in to urgent care at the hospital. They admitted right away, hooked me up for an EKG, put me on oxygen, took blood, did a chest x-ray (we were there 3 hours) and gave me a cocktail to drink the last 45 minutes there.... the doctor thankfully said there was no damage to my heart, no indicators that my heart was/is/has been in distress... I have what is called GERDS.

All I can say is thank the good Lord above... and how in the hell can you have heartburn or acid reflux withOUT FEEling it?????

Pray for my family... please!

12 comments:

  1. Oh my! I'm glad you're ok! But PLEASE, if that ever happens again....don't wait half the day to go to the Urgent Care....go when it starts =) I would be a little stressed about your situation too....self mutilation is one thing....but I would be worried about her acting out on others as well. Keep your chin up...I'm sure it will all work itself out!

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  2. Wow. aaaah... Tough stuff my sweet girl! It is a huge complement that your husband thinks that you can help save his very troubled little girl. You and he may be uniquely qualified to help her because your childhood was less than perfect. God will protect you regardless of this kids problems. That said, child experts say that bringing a child into your home, the child should be the youngest. Having them be the oldest can cause alot of problems.

    Scott has GERD and has found it gets better when he loses weight.

    There, random bits of info on the subjects at hand, hope they help.

    I'm praying for you sister.

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  3. Wow. aaaah... Tough stuff my sweet girl! It is a huge complement that your husband thinks that you can help save his very troubled little girl. You and he may be uniquely qualified to help her because your childhood was less than perfect. God will protect you regardless of this kids problems. That said, child experts say that bringing a child into your home, the child should be the youngest. Having them be the oldest can cause alot of problems.

    Scott has GERD and has found it gets better when he loses weight.

    There, random bits of info on the subjects at hand, hope they help.

    I'm praying for you sister.

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  4. So much on your plate, Leah!! What ever happens, TAKE ADVANTAGE of the help that your area has to offer families who are dealing with issues. Remember that she will test you. Sounds like a little girl who has a lot of pain bottled up inside. I'll be praying for you, and if you ever need an ear, you know my number!! Tough decisions... I don't know what I would do. It's so hard when you already have children and you need to protect them too. I wonder if there's a way to have her in a "half way" house while you set up a relationship with her, and lay out the "rules" of her coming into your home? Someplace close, that you can all talk about what she and you expect to gain from it, and what won't be accepted.

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  5. Leah i am sending you a big,big hug!
    I'm glad is not the heart please take care of yourself.
    People that hurt themselves usually do it as a self relieve thing however if they hurt others you need to be more concern, i would tell you because of personal experience that patience, love and good meds are need it no matter what, agression is frustrations and anger she needs to find the cause to be able to work it out, stay stong and always expect the best,love you girl, hugs, Rosa.

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  6. Leah I am praying for you and your family!very tough decision I wouldn't know what to do!!
    Please take care of yourself!!you are LOVED too much here in the scrapper world ;)
    Take care of yourself i will be keeping you & family in my T&P
    big hugs
    xoxoxo

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  7. Nicole (createdmonster)6/8/08, 7:26 PM

    I am so glad it wasn't something to do with your heart!!! You do have a lot on your plate! I hope you and hubby talk about things and the right decision for everyone involved is reached. Taking on a new child, let alone one with a troubled past, is hard. Take care, girlie!! :-)

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  8. That is so scary! I'm soooo relieved (as I'm sure your entire family is) that you didn't have a heart attack! Take good care of yourself!

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  9. Oh, Leah....now I'm all worried about you! Scary chest pains, a troubled teenager AND a trampoline? Are you trying to give ME a heart attack?

    I guess I don't really understand the situation with Doug's daughter...does SHE know he knows about her? I mean, if her whole life she's been told that her daddy was a jerk and left her and blah, blah, blah....well, maybe she'd be an entirely different person if she actually met Doug and saw what caring and loving people you all are. KWIM? Of course, the person I'd be most worried about in this situation would probably be Katelyn, just because of her age and the fact that she's another girl. It's a tough call, for sure.

    I'll be praying for you...I KNOW God will lead you to make the right decision, whatever that may be. {{{{HUGS}}}}

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  10. okay i have gone to the hospital twice for the same thing and had to drink that lovely COCKtail! Nasty isn't it? I'm glad your okay. because you guys are loving and a great family whatever happens with her will work out one way or the other. Next time...no putting together a tramp with chest pains. geesh.

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  11. Leah! You poor baby. Did they give you some good meds? I take Prevacid as needed.

    Good luck dealing with the situation with Doug's DD. I don't have any advice other than laying down the law with her.

    {{{{HUGS}}}}

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  12. {{{HUGS}}} Sweetheart!! Please take care! I know this Amanda thing has been so much stress on you :(

    I have GERD too!

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Thank you for taking the time to leave me a comment, it warms my heart. I hope you have a blessed day. Crafty hugs, Leah

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