Friday, January 11, 2008

selfish and ungrateful

two qualities my mom is showing to me right now.

I'm doing her paper route for her, have been since the 3rd. Finally started training step dad on the route this morning. He actually rode with me yesterday, but I only had him sit in the back and taught him the dot colors & their meanings. Pointing out special porches/throws/places to put the paper. It's just one big bad day after the other.

The day mom was released from the hospital she went out to the store to get her prescription. Step dad actually demanded it, which I thought was messed up. (their relationship makes NO sense to me whatsoever.. they rarely get along.. it's freaky why you would spend time with someone you bitch at more than you speak civilized to)

The next day, she went out to Big Lots with my aunt shopping. I know my aunt, shopping with her is a 2 or 3 hour ordeal. Today, mom is out at the hair salon and God knows where else, having a good ol time and sounding chipper as hell on the phone. I feel used. She could just as easily sit in the back seat of the van and tell Step dad where the F to turn, when to throw a paper, and when to get out and porch it.

I can't hack a paper route anymore. It's a strain on my family right now, but especially for me. Since I started the two littlest haven't been listening worth a diddly, I haven't wracked up but 3.5 hours of sleep at a time, and I'm sick of having to shove this in my mother and stepdads face that HE needs to LEARN this dang route. So immature, and I hate being taken for granted.

bitchfest over.
Oh yes.. have you seen my mojo? my motivation?
sigh.

12 comments:

  1. Leah I am soo sorry to hear how your Mom is making you feel!I hate when people aren't grateful to people that are helping them out and going out of your way for her!can you just tell her since she has been out and about that you can not do the route no longer and Saturday/sunday will be your last day?or just not do it -Okay thats a bit mean!well (((Hugs))) girl your a great daughter for not flipping!!oh by the way I finished your Play CJ!it will be going out soon just need to get a picture of myself for my sign-in! :)

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  2. oh honey! i know, it just seems so evil when people are like this. i agree with the other comment, just say you can't and leave it at that. you need you time too! hang in there!

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  3. my mother stayed married to her 2nd husband much too long, she is remarried again-3rd times a charm right. i never ever understood their relationship at all. makes me love dave even more though.

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  4. HUGS!!! If it's HER route, she will be the one responsible if you hand the reins over to her again... so sorry.... love ya!

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  5. Your mojo is under your pillow. Go rest your head on it and you will find it. Then in the morning, after the route, calmly call your mom and tell her that you just did the last paper route for her, that you need to take care of you and your family now. Invite her and your stepdad over for dinner next weekend as a peace offering. Don't tell her he should learn the route, let her pick her own options, just tell her you will not be doing it anymore after tomorrow.

    You can do it. Be the grown up she doesn't seem capable of being!

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  6. Your mojo is under your pillow. Go rest your head on it and you will find it. Then in the morning, after the route, calmly call your mom and tell her that you just did the last paper route for her, that you need to take care of you and your family now. Invite her and your stepdad over for dinner next weekend as a peace offering. Don't tell her he should learn the route, let her pick her own options, just tell her you will not be doing it anymore after tomorrow.

    You can do it. Be the grown up she doesn't seem capable of being!

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  7. what minda said sounds so good! hang in there, get some rest and then scrap! hugs!

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  8. what everyone sounds good!
    I know how it feel swhen your mom acts like that , my mom does that too!
    And I live next door to her :(
    I am sure in the next few days you will have your mojo back and the same old routine too! Love you girl!

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  10. Sending (((((((((HUGS)))))))))) YOUR WAY!!

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  11. What can i say??
    Just sending you lots of hugs and good vibes,Rosa.

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  12. Leah, I hope things lighten up a bit for you. You are such a good person to do this. But, i understand your frustration ... feeling as if you've been used. Hang in there. And, your mojo will come back strong I'm sure.

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Thank you for taking the time to leave me a comment, it warms my heart. I hope you have a blessed day. Crafty hugs, Leah

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