I heard back from my OB's nurse yesterday evening, and they have me scheduled to come in early Friday morning for another NST and a visit with the doc. I pray this NST goes much better than previous ones.... don't think I am up to another 3 hours of monitoring at the hospital.
Let's hope we schedule an induction date too!!
Doug has been getting more work shoveled on top of him over the last two weeks at work lately. It's weird. He doesn't mind staying busy, but when he is taking over all his boss's work too, it's just not right. He's actually telling his boss what to do, and nagging him to finish up his work. I hardly have a chance to chat with Doug on MSN anymore. He's been distant at home too, which I know is work related. Not only from his daytime job, but our small home business as well.
I feel bad I can't walk down a flight of stairs to do a load of laundry.
I feel bad I can't get down on the floor right now to help assemble the crib and dresser unit.
I feel bad I can't program yet to help alleviate the stress of having to do it all.
I feel lonely.
I miss you Doug. I wish I could help out more with the things only you can do at this time. I do promise to cut you some slack, and be more understanding of you having too many irons in the fire. I pray this sciatic nerve pain starts healing quickly as soon as I have our son. I'm sorry this pregnancy has caused you so much extra work, and me so much pain.
I'm not sure if any of this makes much sense, but I want you to know I love you, and I hope if you are holding even the slightest grudge against me (even though you do not show it), that you will forgive me for not helping as I wish I could. I love you.